Everyone's got a halo.

today.

2006-08-20T22:59:53Z

Thanks God :) send everyone's angels to watch over them. You know me too well!!! Thanks thanks :)

i really have nothing to say.

2006-08-14T13:00:47Z

I REALLY HAVE NOTHING TO SAY

But, how come I don't feel like I am not one of those lucky ones in relationships? I think I am a player magnet. That hurts Bigtime.

Why do people have to see themselves differently from what people see of them? (lack of self-esteem) am sorry if I hurt anyone. Don't worry cause I feel that too. But, it's not a reason for me to live on how I see myself. I take it as a development strategy. See the flaws, then improve on them. get me?

that's it. No problems yet :D

stop it! stop it now, please!

2006-08-13T00:42:48Z

LEECH! you are every bit of it.

ehhhhh

2006-08-12T00:35:40Z

SO, WHY DID I HAVE TO DREAM OF YOU?
I was supposedly be over you, right? you are such a leech for being able to come inside my dreams...
Hate you.

best :)

2006-08-06T09:37:55Z

am here for you. besides, at least he did not find another chick. That will break your heart more. But still,boys will be boys... panget siya right now... hahaha. to the boy, however, I understand you guys! It will be cool in due time :)

can't get rid of it.

2006-08-06T00:26:35Z

Why did I have to use it all the time?
Why should it be that?
Why can't God make it stay with me forever?
No matter how much it hurts, I can never throw it away. I can't throw away that thing which has rotten itself from my closet.
Please... I can't take it. Its time had passed and all i should do is let go.
I can get a new one far better than any others.
But, am stuck on that old old old BAG.

SO LABOW.ok.. sabog. I will tell you why later. kk? just message me.

Dinuguan

2006-08-03T17:38:05Z

I would always get caught up choosing between two 'ulams'. The Dinuguan or the sinigang.

The dinuguan is the best ulam that I can ever eat simply because of its taste. Honestly, I like the dinuguan better than the sinigang. I like it more no matter how it was cooked because its taste cannot compare with the sinigang's. IT'S THE BEST!!!

The sinigang can never be uniquely distinguished. Despite having this distinct taste, the sinigang has many variants. sinigang na baboy, sinampalukan na manok (it taste like sinigang eh), sinigang na tuna belly (is that it?), sinigang na bangus, etc. They are all made to suit people's different preferences, but, their base ingredient is sampalok or whatever that makes them 'maasim.

See? dinuguan for me is better. it is irreplaceable. The only one of its kind! That's why I do not mind eating dinuguan everyday without reaching my satiation point!

Yesterday, before dinner, I felt so hungry that I went in the kitchen looking for food. Ate sol and manang Andri were there preparing to cook the dinuguan! I had the sudden feeling of excitement cause, YEHES!!! ETO NA TOH!

I was curious about how they cook it, so I stayed and observed them. They started with heating the oil. The garlic and the onions were already prepared for frying (gigisahin) so the taste would come out. Anyway, when I was looking at them, I became more interested on how the raw dinuguan would look like...

WWWWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! yuck. I saw it. BLOOD. yuck. (I sounded so ditsy.) But, it really looked funkie. And I never had the feeling of DISGUST!

Well, I knew what dinuguan is made out of. I had an idea initially. I just realized that I was not ready to see the actual thing. That's why i reacted. What can I do? I was curious. haha.

(hay... nagulat talaga ako eh! hahahahah)

Whatever! I still like to eat the dinuguan. I just have to be certain that it is CLEAN. Else, I will cross that on my favorite ulams list! And never bring it back in my life!!!

The sinigang, however, I could like... That's if I don't find anything that would taste as great as the dinuguan. haha

Am up.

2006-08-02T19:25:06Z

First of all, I don't know why I created a journal. Am not the type of person who puts into public my feelings or thoughts. Am secretive and I choose only the people who I share my stories with.

Second, (I know it's rather nerdy or weird to say this) it could probably help me with my writing skills. Since, I am not a good writer! hehe. see? weird.

But, you know what? what the heck! Cause lately I have been thinking of so many things. And I kind of need a diversion. And writing them is my only consolation cause if they stay in my head it is a lot harder.

I realized something this week:

All women are created by God beautifully. Sometimes, they just need to be the ones to convinve themselves it.

I am not thoroughly convinved by this at first. But, when I think of it, how much more should one do for her to become beautiful? Change her looks? Put on make-up every two hours (woah!)?

No matter how much one tries to look better, she will remain the same. Unless she wants to make a fool out of herself and look like a clown all the time! Am kidding. Please don't mistake me for being bitter. hehe. Am not... Honestly.

But yeah, who else will ever look better than how she looks now? What else can one do to look better? Only one can tell. Cause the eyes can sometimes deceive what it sees. And the mind agrees to what it wants to know.

So, know that you are beautiful. Believe me. Everyone's beautiful. Just know it.

Don't you think so? Till next time!